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About Me


1. real name: Nicole
2. like it: Yup
3. single or taken: Takenish
4. zodiac sign: Aries
5. male or female: Female
6. age: 27
7. height: 5'1"
8. lucky number: 6669
9. eye color: Changes
10. hair color: Changes
11. long or short: Shor (RIght Now)
12. marital status: Married
13. are you a health freak: Some What
14. height: 5'1" (Once Again)
15. do you have a crush on someone: Perhaps
16. do you like yourself: Some Of The Time
17. piercings: Yup I Got Them
18. tattoos: Yup I Got Them Too
19. righty or lefty: Righty
20. fav color: Purple
21. least fav color: Pastel Pink


FIRSTS


22. first kiss: 1994
23. first piercing: Ears
24. first best friend: Ralph
25. first award: Physical Fitness (National)
26. first sport: Field Hockey
27. first pet: Great Dane
28. first vacation: Never Been On One
29. first car: 1990 Subaru Legacy (I Got To Drive This One)
30. first crush: Joe (First Real Crush)


CURRENTLY


31. what time is it: 11:46 am
32. where are you: Hotel Room
33. wish: I Were Somewhere Else
34. about to: Grab A Shower
35. listening to: Cats Play
36. waiting for: Wesley To Get Back
37. wearing: Black Pants & Tie Dye Shirt
38. annoyed about: The Chris Situation
39. eating: A Roll With Butter
40. drinking: Nothing


FUTURE


41. want kids?: Have Them
42. want to get married?: Been There
43. careers in mind?: Cosmetology
44. dream car?: Subaru Outback


WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX


45. lips or eyes?: Eyes
46. hugs or kisses: Both
47. shorter or taller: Taller
48. tan skinned or light: Light
49. romantic or spontaneous: Both
50. dark or light hair: Either
51. built, fat, muscular, skinny, or normal: Any Is Fine With Me
52. hook up or relationship: Relationship
53. similar to you or different: Varies
54. trouble maker or hesitant: Middle


HAVE YOU EVER


55. kissed a stranger: Yup
56. drank bubbles: Nope
57. ate a crayon: Nope
58. lost glasses/contacts: Yup
59. climbed up a tree: Yup
60. broken someone's heart: Sadly
61. been arrested: Yup
62. turned someone down: Yup
63. cried when someone died: Yup
64. liked a friend as more than a friend: Yup


DO YOU BELIEVE IN


65. yourself: Sometimes
66. miracles: Sometimes
67. ghosts: Yup
68. love at first sight: Yup
69. santa clause: *shrugs*
70. heaven and hell: Nope
71. kissing on the first date: Yup
72. God: *shrugs*


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY


73. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yup
74. Who is it? They Know Who They Are
75. Do you kiss on the first date? Sometimes
76. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nope
77. Last time you flossed? Last Night
78. Last time checked for STDs? Last Year
79. Fart in public? *shrugs*
80. Flirt with your friends boyfriend or girlfriend? Never
81. Cheat on a partner? *shrugs*
82. Whats under your bed? Cats
83. Last time you cleaned your toilet? *shrugs*
84. Ever sprout hairs on your chin? Sadly
85. Does the carpet match the curtains? Nope (Naturally They Don't Match)
86. Last kiss? *shrugs*
87. Last booty call? *shrugs*
88. 7th text received? *hugs* nite nite
89. 4th missed call? Sallie Mae
90. Last comment received? No Boob Job...Got It?
91. Sleep with a stuffed animal? Yup
92. Last time you cried? *shrugs*
93. Pee in pools? *shrugs*
94. Ever stolen something? Yup
95. Ever drink milk from the carton? Yup
96. Mad at anyone? Kinda
97. Ever rock a mullet? Nope
98. Last tuxedo worn? Never
99. Last video game played *shrugs*

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Ears...

Well, yesterday I decided I was bored with hoops in the lower holes in my ears so I decided to start stretching.

The rings I had in there were 14g, the spacers Wesley had are 10g, then today the spacer was loose in the ear so I decided to go with the jewelry I wanted...kinda tribal looking things that are 8g. When the ears are a little less bitchy (this will last for like 2 hours) I will take pictures.

I seriously doubt I am going to go any bigger...was sort of freaking out about the holes in my ears over the 10g lol...but I'll live and I am pretty sure I will like them.

Ballad Of Dwight Fry

I wish I could have gotten this song for my page. There are lots of songs that make me remember sitting in my room when I was younger...just lounging with the best therapy a person could have. Music and a cat.

Ballad of Dwight Fry - Alice Cooper

Mommy where's daddy? He's been gone for so long.
Do you think he'll ever come home?

I was gone for fourteen days
I coulda been gone for more
Held up in the intensive care ward
lyin on the floor

I was gone for all those days
but I, was not all alone
I made friends with a lot of people
in the danger zone

See my lonely life unfold
I see it every day
See my only mind explode
Since I've gone away

I think I lost some weight there
and I--- I'm sure I need some rest
Sleepin don't come very easy
in a straight white vest

Should like to see that little children
She's only four years old--- old
I'd give her back all of her play things
even, even the ones I stole

See my lonely life unfold
I see it everyday
See my lonely mind explode
when I've gone insane

I wanna get out of here
I wanna, I wanna get out of here
I gotta get out of here
I gotta get out of here
IgottagetoutahereIgottagetoutahereIgottagetoutahere
Ya gotta let me out of here
Let me outta here
I gotta get outta here
Let me outta here
I gotta get outta here
Let me outta here
I gotta get outta here

See my lonely life unfold
I see it everyday
See my only mind explode
Blow up in my face

I grabbed my hat and I got my coat
and I, I ran into the street
I saw a man that was choking there
I guess he couldn't breathe
Said to myself this is very strange
I'm glad it wasn't me
But now I hear those sirens callin'
and so I am not free

I DIDN'T WANNA BE
I DIDN'T WANNA BE
I DIDN'T WANNA BE
(See my lonely life unfold)
I DIDN'T WANNA BE
(I see it every day)
LEAVE ME ALONE I DIDN'T WANNA BE
DON'T TOUCH ME!!!!
See my lonely mind explode
when I've gone INSAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNE!

Note: The "letmeouttahere" and the "I didn't wanna
be"/CHORUS intercut sections might not be *exact*, but I
think the idea is there enough to make it out.

Thoughts & Such...

Wesley didn't get the job he interviewed for yesterday. Some bull shit excuse but Wesley said he understands where the guy comes from. Whatever. He has another interview on Monday for this job that will last a month, it pays more as well. *sigh*

Last night was lovely. While making dinner Morgayne screams from the bathroom that she is bleeding. I almost wind up on my ass due to running to the bathroom, open the door and there is blood everywhere. I thought she was stupid and cut herself or something. She was hovered over the toliet spitting blood...ah a sign of relief, just a nosebleed. How many times do I have to go thru this with her...tissue + head back. I hate her spontanious nosebleeds.

So...I have one of my first really really weird people online (should send them an award lol). No matter what I say they think I want them...that I am falling for them. I'm trying to be nice about it. Honestly, I am not looking for a piece and if I were I know where to get it. *sigh*

I hate how distant I have been towards friends lately. Just been thinking a lot about life. The person I could normally talk to is now gone. Seems people around me have never really had to deal with death. I had to face it once. It wasn't ugly just weird...oddly mezmerizing. Not saying I want to deal with it on a daily basis but blah.

I really should get back into therapy. I have unresolved matters but my insurance is up as of March 1st so what's the use. Then they are going to want to put me on medications. It's like they think these pills are such a miracle. I know they would have a field day yapping about how I am having a manic episode (waiting for Wesley to chime in about it) since I have been staying up until I pass out...whatever.

Vitamins came in on Thursday. I am quite thrilled everyone is taking them. Knew I wouldn't have a problem with the kids (Mordred throws a tantrum that he can't have more than one) but Wesley likes to fight. Does he not see I am not his mother, I shouldn't be telling him take your vitamins (lol...if I had a 35 year old living @ home there better be a damn good reason). Maybe I am being too hard...maybe it's just that he needs a reminder?

Out of curiousity. Blooging is the same as journaling. Why is it people think because I keep one and I let it open to my friends people think its all "read me read me". Just a thing that bothers me. I see a blog as a way to get the thoughts in my head out. Good, bad, whatever.

Need a shower. Need to shave. Need to do a lot of things. Need to get better.24

Better?

So yeah. Last night was a total hell (mentally/emotionally). I was planning to get back online (sorry to those I stood up) but I literally passed out (guess I was tired?).

I woke up this morning around 10am to Dell telling me they were going to be here in less than an hour. I asked them if we could do it around 12pm but the guy was an ass. I hate waking up like that.

Since the kids were asleep I decided to wake Wesley's ass up and tell him about the Dell guy coming. I jumped into the shower to look less like a bum. I love water. I lay in the tub and just let the water fall onto me...soooo relaxing. It reminded me of times my sister and I would lay back in the water when it would rain.

I also needed to wash out the deep contitioning treatment I was doing the night before...1/2 the hair oil I swear by and 1/2 contitioner...yes my hair is rocking. Today was also the first day I didn't brush my hair...I used a wide toothed comb but that was it...feels weird but guess it takes getting used to.

I am feeling a little bit better than I was feeling last night. Wesley applied for a few jobs. He was getting a couple calls throughout the day. There is one he is going to go on an interview for on Friday. @ first they were offering $22/hour but then when his resume went to the accounts manager it went up to $23/hour for some reason, then they called and set up the interview. Hoping for the best...

Mordred is starting to get really annoying with his slapping/hitting/punching to get your attention. He doesn't mean to hurt you but it is just getting really really annoying. I mean I have tried the nice way...I don't want to have to slap his hands...that just seems cruel.

This month is flying by so quickly. If we don't get a place more than likely the kids and I are heading back to PA. Hate the idea but @ least I have friends there. There are a couple of friends willing to take the kids and I (which I appreciate) but no room for Wesley (I doubt he'd have issues getting back on his feet). In this sort of situation I have to think about what's best for the kids.

School. I want to get back to school asap. I miss it. I have to wait...ugh. I guess it goes on the list of all the other things I am sacrificing while we try to get out shit together. I know it shouldn't bother me so much but when I think about how I would be graduating in May it pisses me off.

I need to get back into a gym. I hope to find one with a pool. According to the information on their site the Bally's here has a pool and childcare for when I am working out. The picture of me sitting next to the yearbook is where I plan to get back to. 150lbs...yeah only like 90lbs to go.

*Sigh* I want to take the time to thank the couple of people putting up with my shit lately. Also, thank you for helping take all this crap off my mind, not judging me for the situation, making me laugh my ass off, and helping get the frustration out in a somewhat peaceful manner (lol). I don't think you guys (not gals) know how much this means.

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my name is:Nicole
this morning i was:grumpy due to being woken up from a lovely dream to make breakfast
im afraid of:a lot right now...
i dream about:lots of things...relationships, life, whatever


Have You Ever...

pictured your crush naked?:LOL...perhaps I have already seen them naked
been in love:Yes...but it's a useless emotion that gets you hurt
cried when someone died:Yes...I suck @ funerals
lied:Yes...nothing major though...nobody got hurt
flowers or candy:Neither...I like creativity
scruff or clean shaven:I dig both looks...depends on the guy
tall or short:Tall...@ least six foot


With The Opposite Sex...

what do you notice first?:Hair
last person you slow danced with:Jeremiah (we're talking 10 years ago)
worst question to ask:Did you get off?


Who...

makes you laugh the most?:Morgayne 7 Mordred
makes you smile:LOl...they know who they are
gives you a funny feeling when you see them:LOL...they know who they are
is easier talk to: boys or girls?:Boys


Do You Ever...

sit on the internet waiting for someone special to IM you?:Yes...done that a few times
save AIM conversations?:Yes...special ones
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?:Yes...who hasn't?
cry because of something someone has said:Yes...but not around them
pray?:Occassionally


Have You Ever...

fallen for your best friend?:Yes...but forced myself to get over it
rejected someone:Yes...once
cheated on someone:Yes...& I don't regret it (it was a dead relationship and I know he was cheating on me)
been cheated on:Yes...last time I ever fully gave a shit about a relationship
done something you regretted:Nope...never regrets...just lessons learned
wanted to die:Yes...some of the time


Who Was The Last Person...

you talked to on the phone:Wesley
hugged:Mordred
you instant messaged:Tracy
you laughed with:Morgayne


Do You...

color your hair:Yes...magenta
ever get off the computer:Nope...I'm addicted
habla espanol:No habla espanol
sprechen sie deutsches:Nope
fight with your parents:yes...my mother and I rarely saw eye to eye
have friends you've lost touch with:yes...wish I could get back in touch with them
feel happy?:Yes...just going to a lot lately
wish you could fly away.. far, far away?:Yes...Second star to the right and straight on 'til morning
believe in God?:I believe in a higher power
could you live without the computer?:Nope
what's your favorite candy?:Rock Candy
whats your favorite fruit?:Pomegranate
sunrise or sunset?:Spring or Summer?
what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?Emotional
trust others way too easily?:Yes...unfortunately it's one of my downfalls
are your fingers cold?:Nope...@ least not @ the moment
coke or pepsi:Pepsi


Final Questions...

I want:a lot of things I know I will never have again
I wish:I were back in school already
I love:the calming effects of burning incense
I miss:financial stability
I fear:dying @ an early age like my mother and grandfather
I hear:that annoying Camp Lazlo in the background
I smell:like Love Spell
I wonder:if anyone even cares
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FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE

1.Sales Associate
2.Customer Service Representative
3.Medical Receptionist
4.Administrative Assistant


FOUR MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER

1.Rocky Horror Picture Show
2.Robin Hood: Men In Tights
3.Harry Potter Series
4.The Princess Bride


FOUR CITIES YOU'VE LIVED IN:

1.Woodside, NY
2.Lancaster, PA
3.Millerstown, PA
4.Collingswood, NJ


FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH

1.Dharma & Greg
2.CSI (Vegas, NY, & Miami)
3.Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy
4.Cold Case


FOUR PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION:

1.Ripley's Believe It Or Not
2.Cape May Zoo
3.The Pocanos
4.Gettysburg


FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY:

1.Tagworld
2.Gmail/Yahoo Mail
3.Domino's Pizza
4.Myspace


FOUR OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVORITE RESTAURANTS:

1.Lenny's Clam Bar
2.Fire Mountain
3.Sangiuliano's
4.Crystal Lake Diner


FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:

1.Seafood
2.European Chocolate
3.Chinese
4.Italian


FOUR SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED

1.James Buchanan Elementary School
2.Newport Jr/Sr High School
3.Thompson Institute
4.Empire Beauty School


FOUR PLACES I'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:

1.Receiving a manicure/pedicure
2.Cuddling as I fall asleep
3.Closer to my friends
4.Back in school


FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY:

1.Woke up to the lovely fire alarm (someone pulled it)
2.Fed the vultures
3.Got online
4.Watched tv


FOUR THINGS YOU DID YESTERDAY:

1.Got online
2.Cleaned the place
3.Took care of Mordred (he was sick)
4.Ordered chinese food
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